Can’t Sleep…
Thinking about my dog. Cookie.
Thinking about my cabin. The day mom found it. Repainting it.
Thinking about my old house. Natalie playing the piano.
Just thinking about how people spend everyday of their lives trying to ‘get ahead’… trying to get somewhere ‘better’ with ‘nicer’ things. Wishing their lives away, waiting for the day when they FINALLY feel happy.
Working for that brand new car, the house on the hill, new furniture. It’s healthy right? To always be looking forward, moving on, getting better. I understand why people do this… I am constantly doing it. Neglecting the moment to focus on the future.
It feels natural, until you lose something.
I miss my dog. What I wouldn’t give to go back in time tonight and cherish her for one more day. So many stupid days I let her lay around the house alone!! I hate myself for that.
So what about the future? What about getting old and not being able to run like the wind anymore? What about aches and pains? Wrinkles… the loss of youth. The loss of possibilities and options. What about the deaths of loved ones around me?
… What about those last minutes of your own life?
Hopefully for me… I won’t spend them thinking about how I walked through it completely asleep. Hopefully I can live through struggles, strife and success with a big smile on my face and enjoyment in my heart.
Because I’m alive. NOW! Not tomorrow…
1 comment:
This is a sad one. I remember the day that my family lost our dog. I spent a lot of time with him, but it was a heartbreaker. It was probably one of the most difficult things that I dealt with in my adolescence.
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