Beating Hearts

Afraid not of tears
But a cold and dark heart
Baring soul brings fear
Pain paints the art

Thinking back before life
I saw you’d be there
A friend in your soul
Something deep we would share

Together we found
The world sometimes dark
Our peace was sound
In silence so stark

No answers in mind
For injustice in life
Love pure and kind
Guiding your light

Wishing to know
Just for your peace
Giving your all
But not your release

By you, I stay
‘Til death do us part
Even though it may
Tear through my heart

Only we understand
True love, pure and real
Giving all that we can
Risking wounds that won’t heal

Learned over time
What born into us
A treasure to find
Most glorious

All I can say
Dear friend of mine
Fearless tears are the way
Beating hearts always shine.

Emptiness

As light enters
And fills
My eyes

I wake
With question of
Whether to rise

I stand, and carry
With me
My mind so wary

Drudging up stairs
Through doors
Down streets

Buzzing with life
All
Asleep

I watch
That which passes
Some days without thought

As it
Stands still
I stop

I live not
In my life
But a dream

What
All
Is it worth?

What
All
Does it mean?

I want to be
More
But feel that I’m less

Trapped in
My existence
Emptiness

First blog post... You know this is going to just suck. Oh well.

I have this Philosophy class at school this semester. It started out OK, but it turns out that my teacher is one of those a-holes who can't for the life of him give out an A as a grade. So no matter HOW HARD I work in there I never get a very decent grade. 

That's why I decided to better my day entirely, by ditching his rambling bullshit lecture and instead, go shopping!

This actually didn't work out for me anyway. Because of the whole MONEY thing. I thought I might be able to FINALLY use my giftcards that I always forget about in my wallet... WOW, THIS IS KIND OF BORING. 

To get to the point, the stores I went to didn't have journals OR notebooks. (What store doesn't have a simple pad of paper? Only the ones I happen to have giftcards to) THAT'S HOW THIS WHOLE BLOG BEGAN. No money, and no journal= Vanessa's blabbering blog to the world!

SO... if you like reading a lot crap about nothing in particular, something that MAY make you think, or laugh... and cry too, then read on.

But let me state that before you begin reading, beware that there will NOT be any material included that talks about weightloss! As ironic as this is . . . I work at a weightloss center, and in my experience the only thing I have learned about weightloss is... IT IS BORING. 

People are so much more INTERESTING just the way they are! And instead of losing weight, maybe they should just gain some self confidance! I get so sick of what I do. 

*Note to self: Quit job A.S.A.P.

BYE!